Over and over for the last couple of years the theme of trust has kept coming up for me. A lot of us have gone through some pretty tough stuff, especially in 2012 it seems. I thought 2013 was a new start, leaving the challenge of 2012 all behind. I was a tiny bit wrong.
I’m writing a book on the Law of Love and manifesting called “The Signal”. So I’ve been spending a lot of time and energy on the subject of love, the metaphysics of it. And on the subject of the Law of Attraction.
Like attracts like. That’s the Law of Attraction in a nutshell.
But it’s not “like thought attracts like”. This goes way beyond positive thinking: It’s that your vibration, my vibration, who we are in our core, is where the Law of Attraction works.
And because of this we are given a lot of opportunities to discover what is at our core.
Life has a way of surfacing whatever isn’t in alignment with the Law of Love.
Whatever part(s) of us are living in fear will be stimulated and pushed on and rise up and smack us in the face. There is no escaping it. And that’s an incredible gift.
I recently went through something very challenging. A loss of mass proportions. At least, that’s how it felt. Especially from my fear.
I have had to dig through that fear, dig deep into my heart, dig into my very soul it seemed, to find the love and trust in me that allowed me to take a deep breath and simply know that everything is going to be alright.
The Universe needs us to be in active partnership with it for things to work right.
By “things” I mean the magic and beauty of life. By “right” I mean flow and synchronicity and becoming the beautiful lights that we are.
So I have been having to actively make the choice to come back to trust. To let go of my fear(s). And the thing that has enabled me to do it is the deep love in my core.
I have had to work very hard to get to my core. Years and years and years of self-examination and practice and trial-and-error (and prayer and meditation and travel and study) and some pretty incredible people loving the light in me in spite of myself.
The core of who we are is where our essence lines up with, vibrates in harmony, with the pulse of the Universe. Of love. Of Life.
It is from here that we have to live – a place of deep trust that enables this harmonious resonance to permeate our lives, not just our minds or our deep inner feelings, but everything, everyplace.
Trusting means letting go. You have to let go of the fear and uncertainty that grips you and choose trust. It’s an activity, not a thought.
Recently, I have had to choose trust a thousand times in one day, two or three or 5 days in a row.
I do it by remembering. Re-membering.
By pulling together all my pieces that fear fragments and remember who I am, what I am. And from this remembering I call out to love and to the Universe to reinforce the remembering. To help me.
Too often we try to do it all on our own. But calling out, even if you don’t “believe” in anything, just confessing your need – for support, for help, for clarity, for love – is very healing and very activating. It sets the Universe in motion because when we do this, we let go of the fear barriers, the ego barriers, that keep us guarded and keep love out.
Hearing yourself admit the truth of your fear, of your weakness, of your need, is very, very powerful. Because it’s honest. And that honesty is what allows the layers of protection and story and pain to melt away.
Those layers are what get in the way of the love and harmony that we seek. Those layers are what prevent life from being the juiciest possible.
I don’t know how things are going to play out in my current situation. I know what I hope for. And that hope serves as a kind of teat I nurse for comfort while the uncertainty swirls around me and the remainder of my fear bubbles and spews.
But right now I am practicing trust. And I am letting go of whatever is getting in the way of that.
One final thing – the fear is a palpable energy in my body. And it has created a lot of anxiety. I have started to exercise twice a day: cardio in the morning and strength training at night. It is giving the energy somewhere to go but it’s also bringing in a new energy, a strong energy, that is charging me up. It’s like a secret key I have discovered and it’s blowing my mind.
This personal growth and consciousness stuff doesn’t just happen in our inner chambers or our thoughts. It happens by changing our behaviors.
I keep asking myself “What would love do?” and then I do that. And when I can’t, I dig deeper. I am determined to kick fear’s ass. I am determined to live from trust. And I am determined to be as strong as I know I really am.
More and more I am convinced that love is seeking us. Always. And it is we who run from it, we who prevent it, we who don’t give it a soft and fertile place to land. We who are too hard, too guarded, too untrusting, for love to make its home in our hearts. And I am so thankful that love is so relentless. That life gives so many opportunities every day to see where love is absent, where we are hard or scared or in pain. But it is we who have to choose to trust enough to let go of the layers and simply let love come in and see what happens.
This is my lesson. This is my practice. This is my path.